Crap I am so depressed. I woke up today and decided I was tired of the pile of clothes I brought with me. I wanted to go to a thrift store. It was either that or the Park. I really hate shopping but I am addicted to clothes. I just…

Erstwilder I’m wearing the necklace I bought months ago for Josie. I think maybe I am the one it’s really for now. It’s bigger than I remembered. I had been meaning to go by their house and give it to her or leave it on the doorstep as I had…

Holes in the ground I had finally gotten through to Eliot that he needs to take his adderall the way it is prescribed and be consistent or his whole mindset could go to shit. And it had been. They fucked up his meds at the hospital so he was just…

Saturday I had to change my flight today. I found out there was already a zoo on the plane and Pirate couldn’t be accommodated. I panicked. I immediately started imagining what it would feel like to leave Pirate behind. How he would feel being left behind. Both of us would…

Elsa A storm given the name Elsa busied herself outside the balcony window. I caught a glimpse of a silver blue flash through the blinds and at almost the same time heard a clap of thunder that sounded like the air was splitting the earth open. I swear I felt…

Independence Day I BOUGHT MY PLANE TICKET BACK TO PORTLAND!! And I was going to burn the flag I stole from Central Park today but I never got around to it. My stomach hurt from all the pepper jelly I ate last night on my leftover baguette. ……..continued

Cloudy Day I want so badly to text Josie’s mom and share an itunes link “Here’s a song for Josie,” like I used to when I’d hear a new song I knew she would like. It’s called Cloudy Day and it’s by Tones and I. She just put out a…

Mikes I haven’t messaged Mike for a whole week. Well I haven’t messaged him anything crazy irrational. I did send one tiny message on Wednesday about the State of Emergencies. I don’t think I even really knew what a state of emergency was before COVID. I mean on a national…

Greenwich Village, Part 1 I made myself go out today. I mean I made myself. I felt like I was covered in tar, in a pool of tar trying to stretch myself out onto a sidewalk made of tar. Anxiety hit me in the gut as I was trying to…